The question of the presence of God – is he here or not – has long been a dilemma on my Christian journey. I have often assumed God’s presence and approval of my worship and the doubts hindered my faith. God’s silence in my life used to be a struggle for me. Sometimes when I was deep in the whirlwind of sorrow and I could not find any evidence that He was anywhere near.
Nevertheless, through is grace and prayer I learnt God is always with us. The problem was my belief and lost faith. However, when I restored these, I felt His presence. In addition, the issue was that God was not by my rules and I have not learned his rules. Therefore, when I feel alone, I do not despair. I just say, “God, I know you are here and you with me”.
The focus now is not if God is present with me, because He is an infinite Spirit. Rather I now focus on my faith and praising His name. The verses that reassured me and helped me through include:
“Where can I go from Your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there Your hand will guide me, Your right hand will hold me fast” (Psalm 139:7–10).
“Nothing in all creation can hide from Him. Everything is naked and exposed before His eyes. This is the God to whom we must explain all that we have done.” Hebrews 4:13
“Don’t you know that you yourselves are God’s temple and that God’s Spirit lives in you?” 1 Corinthians 3:16